nova_myth | Entries tagged with noise

I am so feeling like crap. I got about three hours of sleep last night, on top of my already messed up less than normal sleep problem in the last two weeks, because of the noise. Its not always the same, but I know when I hear it its from the house, because I don't hear it anywhere else. Not in my car at 7am in the school's garage that's practically empty. Not in an empty hall or class room. And not in any bathroom or office where its dead quiet. It was so loud last night, not the loudest, but it ranked second. I didn't have an anxiety attack for once, but I was frustrated. I tried and fought but 1:30am rolled around and I couldn't numb my ears enough from my headphones and music to block out the sound lond enough for me to fall asleep.

So I called the Aunt, she called my housemate, who turned off her TV. I could still hear the noise, and lied to her that it was less. It did eventually tapper off, but that I guess happened after I tried again to numb my ears and I was able to fall asleep, only to wake up at 3:32am and struggled to fall back asleep because the noise was less I could hear the damn thing. When I woke up with hell at 5 this morning I could barely hear it.

My day has just been a frazzle day, shifting from fine to chaos one hour to the next. Work was draining as usual even though I had my partner back for the day and there were less kids today I was just so tired from last night and the last few weeks.

I watched the VP debate at a viewing party being hosted in a near by theater. I think I was snubbed. Why? Maybe because my shirt was "Prime for President".... Oh well.

I so need hugs right now. Real hugs, but the motherly arms I seek are two thousand miles away. Seems as every day passes I become more and more alone... my contact with friends drifting even though I'm trying to get a hold of them to talk.

I am going to 'attempt' to crash now. My vision is bluring and it feels like my eyes are crossing when they're not. Just let me clock out the moment my head hits the pillow, that's all I want. All I ever want when I wish to sleep.