On another note....
Jan. 7th, 2009 01:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nova_mythMy current life schedule is getting annoying. First being trapped at my grandmother's without net for a week was enough to drive my crazy to an extent. My cell suppose to get net but the signal for anything in my grandmother's house is totally messed and so even that was not an option. I usually talk to ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
autobotmosquito daily via AIM, but we haven't really spoken but a few sentences for almost two weeks. My real life friends sudden... life complications don't do well to easing my distress. I feel cut off, and its driving me nuts. I've been back with the net for three days and I still feel cut off and detatched... its bizzare. Argh. Its extremely hard to discribe. I'm not... angry with my real life friends, just... frustrated. I hate feeling isolated; I went through that so much already, during the three year period from when my mother pasted away, moving away, and eventually moving back. Granted and I acknowledge that was me who was doing the distanting, although I hardly realized it at the time, I did feel it.
I suppose with the upheavel of everything and the fact my 'adoptive' family several thousand miles away and unable to really be part the solution of the conflict I'm currently in doesn't help. I'm feeling an odd mixture of feelings, I'm so close to so many friends but not able to really spend time quality time as much as I'd like with break coming to an end...
I am ironically very glad work started this week, even if it cut into possible time with my friend Mei Mei visiting from Indiana, because of the kids. Even though I have to deal with little things with them everyday, they make me happy. Today was just hillarious. It was finally warm enough and dry enough for them to play on their main playground. It was cold and foggy yesterday, so they couldn't play outside. But it was perfect today, cool and nice with light jackets or long sleeves. But what made it special was the big tree in the yard had dropped its leaves, everywhere. We herded the kids into making a pile which we raked high and you can imagion the outcome. It was priceless. My co-worker was able to get the digital camera from our boss and we took at least two dozen photos, and I hope to be able to get copies and scrapbook them along with others from the year. My kids are truely the best grade in so many ways, and I am proud of them (although I doubt they know how much). They were extra good as a whole today, in more ways than normal. Still needing some getting after but I didn't have to reinforce the rules anywhere near what I though I'd need to, they remembered even since yesterday.
autobotmosquito daily via AIM, but we haven't really spoken but a few sentences for almost two weeks. My real life friends sudden... life complications don't do well to easing my distress. I feel cut off, and its driving me nuts. I've been back with the net for three days and I still feel cut off and detatched... its bizzare. Argh. Its extremely hard to discribe. I'm not... angry with my real life friends, just... frustrated. I hate feeling isolated; I went through that so much already, during the three year period from when my mother pasted away, moving away, and eventually moving back. Granted and I acknowledge that was me who was doing the distanting, although I hardly realized it at the time, I did feel it.I suppose with the upheavel of everything and the fact my 'adoptive' family several thousand miles away and unable to really be part the solution of the conflict I'm currently in doesn't help. I'm feeling an odd mixture of feelings, I'm so close to so many friends but not able to really spend time quality time as much as I'd like with break coming to an end...
I am ironically very glad work started this week, even if it cut into possible time with my friend Mei Mei visiting from Indiana, because of the kids. Even though I have to deal with little things with them everyday, they make me happy. Today was just hillarious. It was finally warm enough and dry enough for them to play on their main playground. It was cold and foggy yesterday, so they couldn't play outside. But it was perfect today, cool and nice with light jackets or long sleeves. But what made it special was the big tree in the yard had dropped its leaves, everywhere. We herded the kids into making a pile which we raked high and you can imagion the outcome. It was priceless. My co-worker was able to get the digital camera from our boss and we took at least two dozen photos, and I hope to be able to get copies and scrapbook them along with others from the year. My kids are truely the best grade in so many ways, and I am proud of them (although I doubt they know how much). They were extra good as a whole today, in more ways than normal. Still needing some getting after but I didn't have to reinforce the rules anywhere near what I though I'd need to, they remembered even since yesterday.
