nova_myth | Unbelievable....

Last night I was having one hell of anxiety attack with an emotional breakdown. That I may or may not have been able to handle on my own. But I have had this constant weird ringing in my ears for now over 3 days. On top of that I started to get chills when I had already turned the AC off over an hour earlier. So I started making calls for friends to see if they chould take me to the clinic downtown open 24hours because I had taken an anti-anxiety meds about an hour before the chills started. I couldn't get a hold of any of them so I went to my last resort and called my second cusion.

I shouldn't haven't even bothered. She was as I quote, "I have a function tomorrow at Saint Philips (church for you non-catholics), I need sleep too." Which to that I said, Bye and she tried to say, call me if you need me. I hung up.

And my 'immediate' family wonders why I don't want anything to do with them and I call them relatives and my friends' family my real family? I am snubbing any lunch with her until II'm absolutely broke again. I don't care its free food and from my favorite Thai place, I'm not going to talk to her, she can stew over why.

Ugh. My friend Patrick who is about a hundred miles away stayed on the phone with me for over an hour, just talking. Eventually, thank god, the meds finally put me in loopy land and I nodded off, but it was absolute hell for 4 + hours.