Tattoo musings

Its kinda hard talking to anyone my age about tattoos for a very ironic reason. Not that they or I are against them, but they don't understand when I say I want 'this specific tattoo' I haven't gone and got it already. I don't just want 'this as I says it'. I want a certain image, in a certain style, and I know damn well from seeing other people's mistake that even if its a simple trace and ink tattoo the artists can screw it up easily. So finding someone with the 'style' is the difficult part.

There are two tattoos I want. I want a dragon, tribal style, in a certain pose. I'm not sure all together what it would look like, hence the importance of an artist who does that style and truly understands that style. I want this for two reasons, I love dragons and my mother's Chinese zodiac is a dragon. Its basically in her memory. It would go on my back. The second one I would want in a certain Japanese tattoo style of a humpback whale, specifically Migaloo. Migaloo is a albino humpback, the only one ever documented. Because he is white it is essential that the design, designer, placement, and tattoo artist is perfect. Even lasers can not remove white ink.

I want a transformers tattoo too, but no idea of design or style have struck me yet. For some reason I am just not interested in getting the Autobot symbol on me right now.

Writer's Block: My Dream Job

[Error: unknown template qotd]My dream job has shifted several times over the years. When I was a kid I wanted to be a vet, so I volunteered at my vet's office and found I really don't think I could do the surgery or needle part so that was out. Later I got into photography and thought, I'll be a photographer. Then I discovered first hand how anal and competive the photography world was and it wasn't for me. For the past several years my dream job has been teaching, specifically overseas in Japan. Will I ever get there? Who knows. Its taking so long just to get classes out of the way the reach of my degree seems to grow longer and longer with each semester. Its very heart breaking. And when I finally get my BA, where will I be in my life? Its so many years off....

Feeling the need...

I'm kinda freaked out that I don't have a regular doctor anymore since she left practice last month. I'm going to go talk to my math teacher in the morning and pray we can come up with some kind or compromise, I'm just feeling overwhelmed and freaked out about my grades, or lack there for of... oi. I haven't had any panic attacks but I have noticed dear tummy is becoming sensitive and thats where my freak out about my doctor, I don't have anyone to go to if I need to see someone!! I've been looking since I found out but not really sure what road to take... School has only been in for a few weeks but I am already feeling failure is on the horizon and I fight it every day so many times a day. I need to talk to my teachers. The only one I'm not totally freaking out (yet) on is English because we haven't done much outside of class and I don't have that pressure on me too (yet)...

My boss was getting after me (in a good way), "Stop freaking out!", l when I told her everything after work.