3am, why do you hurt me so?

I was able only to sleep two hours last night. And that was with the help of two benadrile. The noise isn't as loud or like it was 36-48 hours ago, but my stomach pain is what is keeping me from any real rest. I'll be forced to skip classes again, something I am not happy about. I am fighting the temptation to call someone, anyone, to take me to the 24 hour clinic downtown. The walk in I use opens in 3 and a half hours. I can't even drink water, that makes my stomach pain shoot up too. When I swallow pills my stomach immediately want to bring it back up. I am trying to find anything that will hold my attention off the pain, either be tv or something on the net but I feel like I am fighting a loosing battle.

I'm doomed

I'm in the middle of a damn anxiety attack. Ugh.

I woke up at 3:30 in the morning, I only got two hours of sleep after the two benadrile help me finally get to sleep. I woke up in sweat, stomach pain, and chills for the second day in a row and I couldn't go back to bed. Enough is enough, I can't take it. I turned the tv on and tried to focus on anything so time would go by faster and I wouldn't hear the noise.

So I skipped class to go to the docotor and I couldn't focus that well to email my teachers for todays class I'll do it tonight or whenever I get out of this attack. So at the doctor its concluded I'm suffering from mulitple things that normally by themselves I might have been able to deal with, but all at once forget it. My ears are jammed packed with wax and its messing with my nerve hairs. They tried to flush it and that's what sent me into the anxiety attack. I don't like suctions or anything like it because of a bad doctor when I was 4. That was over an hour ago. I got med samples for my stomach to reduce acid, samples of stuff for my ears, and sample for if my ears were to start hurting. I got a prescription for the anxiety which I can only take at night for bed because it will make me drowsy. I also had to get ear drops at the store to soften the wax, its so jammed in there they couldn't get it. I'll be going back Tuesday for another try at the flush and hopefully it will come out easily otherwise I'm in possible trouble.

So here I am, sitting in my room having just gotten off the phone with my boss at work, who is also sick. She's in full support, and I'm to call her back by 1 to tell her if I'm going to be able to make it. I don't think I will. The missed sleep is effecting me almost as much as the anxiety.

I love livejournal, its helping me deal so much right now.

Guess what arrive 4 days early!!

My sized exchanged Xip3 Transformers Jacket!!! No photos, its just like the other, just smaller, plus my camera phone sucks so eh. Who knows, maybe by some miracle I'll be able to get my hands on a digital camera during the Thanksgiving sales, then I'll take a photo of it, in all its glory! Big, but not too big incase I have to layer up.

Talk about a wonderful surprise while I struggle with my body and watch the clock go by and slightly feel guilty on having left my partner alone. But he has a lot more experience, and I'd really wouldn't be any help in the condition I'm in right now.

As long as I'm able to crash tonight between 7-8pm and get up at 5:30 tomorrow without too much trouble I'll be happy. I have training at 8:30 to 4:30, but the highway to the location where the training is held is going to be shutdown starting tonight till Monday. I'll have to take the street roads, adding at least 15 minutes to the already 20 minute drive. So I'll lave the house about an hour before hand. I also have to do laundry tonight, I have to wear one of my work shirts, and both of the two are dirty. I ordered 3 more so I'll have a total of five but I don't know when I'll be getting them.

So much for peace...

At 4:30 my housemate left the house. My peace was short lived. Why? Because her TV CAME ON! FULL VOLUME! She programed it, obviously. >:(  And I can't go into her room to turn it off.

I finally got a hold of her aunt half an hour after the tv went on, its been almost half an hour since then. If I don't hear back by 6pm I'm calling her back, because I already told her if my housemate isn't back I'm flipping the switch to her room by breakerbox come 8pm, its later than I want to go to bed, but I told her, I have to get up early for training at in the morning.